Much has already been written about my journey from retail to information security, and much more will be said in the future, of that I have no doubt (I’m looking forward to visiting Dublin again, already).
But still, I am quite amazed myself at this wondrous adventure on which I have embarked.
Just 20 months ago, I was working awful hours, asking a team of people to fill up shelves something like this one:
But then, of course, things changed and that job and this blog gave way to something far, far better; I found myself with a full-time career in information security, working with the sole founder of Host Unknown, Javvad Langford (he’s the good looking one on the right):
Well, yes, of course it is. But who wants to be comfortable and settled in what they do?
But how boring would that be?
And so, last year I picked my comfort zone up, gazed at it longingly and threw it out of the window before agreeing to join the rookie track at BSidesLondon to give a talk.
Ok, so I didn’t sleep well for a few weeks before the talk, but it didn’t kill me and so I soldiered on, thinking about all the other things I couldn’t do, getting annoyed that I felt that way, and feeling determined to do something about it, safe in the knowledge that no-one else was going to ask me to do any scary stuff any time soon.
Roll on this year and someone scary did ask me to do something (yeah, I know, but I’m tired and she know’s I’m joking), namely in the form of a podcast which you can listen to here:
.oO(I need some more pro photos… I actually look quite presentable there)
And there you go, job done. Or so I thought.
Time to get comfortable again, nothing else to freak me out this calendar year.
Barely a couple of weeks had passed when Eleanor Dallaway asked me if I could do a panel at InfoSecurity Europe.
I mean, what the heck? Really? You think I like doing this stuff?
Blimey… talk about putting the mockers on what should have been three great days out of the office, I now had something to fret about.
And, what’s more, I didn’t even find out who I was on the panel with until I got what I thought was a random LinkedIn request from one of them about an hour before we all went on… live tv.
Ho-hum, I think I got away without looking like a rabbit caught in the headlights. In fact, the feedback I got from those whose opinion of me means something was… [REDACTED].
In all honesty, though, I’m very, very grateful to Eleanor for giving me the opportunity – I did actually enjoy the experience and I know it will come in useful in the future.
And now I get to breathe out, only I don’t, because I’ve agreed to do some double-teaming with Thom (does that sound wrong?) and at least one of my colleagues is championing me to fly out to India to merely attend a conference (just as well I ain’t scared of flying, eh? OH SHIT!)
But anyway, is there a point to this ramble?
Of course there is and it is this: I’ve had to work bloody hard to get to where I am now but that wasn’t the end of the journey, it’s only the beginning.
If you want to get anywhere in life, be that professionally, or in other areas, you have to put yourself out there, you have to leave your comfort zone, you have to face your fears head on and, more than anything else, if you never give up, nothing is impossible.
Thanks to William Lau for the use of 2 photos.